4 reasons why I was scared sh*tless to start a blog but did it anyway

1.Why I was scared sh*tless

I’m a private person – this may seem strange as I’ve offered myself up to share my stories with the BIG BAD INTERNET WORLD OF TROLLS … Okay it’s not that bad (lols) but I am usually extremely private – all of my social media accounts have been private for years and to be quite honest, I’ve had my self-esteem crushed by some seriously sh*tty people in the last few years (onbloline and offline) that I thought would laugh at my ideas and think I’m crazy.scream queens scared screaming season 1 emma roberts

Why I did it anyway.

Because guess what? I am crazy and all the best people are. I think we all like to keep certain things private naturally, but you should be proud of who you are and if you have a passion, write about it, paint it, perform it whatever it is… shout about it! Even if it is just your mom or best friend who appreciates it (this was a fear of mine too!) who cares? Do what you love and be unapologetic about it.

2. This has always been a bit of a dream of mine, and what if I fail?

I think secretly we are all a bit scared of our dreams, like when you ask someone what their dream job is, the usual conversation goes a little like this:

Person (A): I’d love to of been an actor!

Person (B): Well, why aren’t you an actor then?

Person (A): Someone like me could never be an actor, things like that don’t happen to people like me.

If you don’t try then how will you ever know? I think we all have a bit of person A in us, even Beyonce (even Queen bey lost out on countless talent contests trying to make it). I was person A when it came to starting my blog and to be honest, I thought that no one would be interested in what little me, from a little town would have to say. But just look at all of your idols, they all started where you are today, worrying that they will fail. Everything in life started with a single thought, but then you have to act on it and give it all you have!

 ACTIONS ACTIONS ACTIONS.

3. What if no ones interested in me? Or I get trolled? Or no one likes me? What if I become the weird cat lady?

Excuses, excuses, excuses … I sat on the idea of starting a blog for about a year thinking of all the reasons why I shouldn’t start one. How ridiculous, to think up reasons in my head why I shouldn’t do what I wanted to do. It’s sad because I think we are all guilty of doing this every day, with everything actually. I’m not going to text that boy first because he probably doesn’t even like me, I’m not going to apply for that job because I’ll never get it, I won’t upload that picture because I’m not pretty enough. I’m going to put it bluntly here:

F*CK EVERYONE ELSE.

Honestly, some people live their lives so scared of other peoples opinions that they put their own dreams as secondary, don’t let other people win and be your own biggest supporter.

4. The web of doom.

Shockingly I’m actually a marketing graduate, but tested with plugins, google analytics, domains, hosts and whatever else these bloggers master (hats off to you all because it really isn’t easy) I nearly, nearly threw my laptop across the room, and shutdown my blog never to return.

I’m very dramatic if you haven’t already guessed, I’m easily frustrated and have the patience of a small child. But ALAS even I persevered, there is SO many free tutorials readily available, including great advice on other blogs that do all the hard work for you and, if like me, you are a visual learner YOUTUBE is going to be your best friend. Believe me.

In a nutshell…

I’m still in my (very) early days with my blog trying to navigate my way through the internet village that’s exploded its way into our lives, and to be honest every time I post I still crap myself, I second guess the post, the content, cringe at myself promoting it (how else will people see otherwise though? So promote too!!! Even if you cringe at it like me!) But I do anyway, why? Because I want to, because it makes me happy, and if its makes you happy too, what are you waiting for?

14 Comments

  1. April 30, 2016 / 7:09 pm

    Love your post Loving the scream queens vid too so glad u started blogging x

    • Budget Girl Xo
      May 3, 2016 / 7:48 am

      Ahh thank you sweetie! Xo

  2. Lacie
    May 5, 2016 / 8:16 pm

    Great piece! I’ve been wanting to start a blog for almost a year now, and I’ve been letting different insecurities and fears hold me back so it’s great to see someone else struggled with the same type of thing! Cant’t wait to read more from you!

    • Budget Girl Xo
      May 6, 2016 / 9:58 am

      All I can say is just go ahead and start! I still get scared now when I post! I love writing but I find it very personal, so sharing it scared me but honestly I bet you’ll be great at it! Let me know when you’ve started i’d love to have a read! Xo

  3. June 23, 2016 / 7:44 am

    I enjoyed reading this. I too am a new blogger and I learn so much from reading the experiences of others

  4. July 6, 2016 / 5:38 pm

    Love this! I felt very similar. Good for you 🙂

  5. July 6, 2016 / 6:14 pm

    What a great blog! I just started my blog a few weeks ago but I bought my domain a year ago, for all that time I was procrastinating and worrying what other people will say if I start writing… my excuses are my language barrier, that I am foreign that people will laugh at my spelling mistakes etc… I have many passions and I will be writing my blogs, but thanks for writing this one! I felt like I have written it to myself!!! xxx

    • Blonde Ambition
      July 7, 2016 / 7:39 am

      I see no spelling mistakes! 😛 Ah i’m so pleased you started your blog it is a big step but once you do it its so rewarding! Can’t wait to read yours! Thanks for reading 🙂 x

  6. July 28, 2016 / 8:19 pm

    Thanks for writing about this topic. I’m very very new blogger so sometimes I feel everything you have written above. As Ewelina I’m a foreigner so I’m afraid of my grammar mistakes, I’m also a teenager so sometimes I’m afraid that some people won’t read me just because I’m not adult. But I love blogging so much so little by little I feel more confident.

    Oksana
    http://www.i-am-ok26.blogspot.com

  7. July 29, 2016 / 7:11 am

    Omg this is literally me! Love the post, so honest and real! But you’re so right we should just do what makes us happy! You go girl!

  8. August 1, 2016 / 8:20 pm

    I started a blog two months ago and I was SO scared that my words would not mean anything to anyone.But i am so glad I made one, love doing it.

    Thank you so much for sharing this, It is so relatable 🙂

    Nikki O. | http://www.herdaringthoughts.blogspot.com

  9. August 22, 2016 / 8:00 pm

    Love this post. It’s always nerve-wrecking sharing every detail of your life on social media and your blog, but sometimes you have to do what’s best for you and your future! – My latest blog post is actually about the disadvantages of being confident and actually talks about people with ambitions etc. I would suggest reading it.. if i do say so myself. Good work though!!

    • Blonde Ambition
      August 23, 2016 / 8:52 am

      Thank you, just had a look at your blog its beautiful! Can’t wait to read! Xo

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